Hi everyone! For those of you who have followed this blog, you may have noticed that I abandoned writing for an unusual length of time. What you don’t know is a company that didn’t appreciate one of my articles was trying to sue me. I had received stacks and stacks of paperwork and I read every sentence. I was never actually sued, just threatened. They even threatened to put me in jail. Who knew, a young rheumatoid arthritis sufferer could get so much attention? Handcuffs could really hurt. ;P I don’t believe even for a second that they had a case but just for the record, anyone can be sued for anything at any time. Guilt seems like an unnecessary ingredient in the court room these days. It didn’t matter that I was sharing an experience, and that freedom of speech is a right. What mattered was that I grew tired of dealing with it, and in turn, they had shut me up. They had accomplished taking away my voice. Because of this, I left the blog world for a long while. I even stopped writing entirely. I didn’t even notice when I hadn’t renewed my internet hosting account. I was sort of turned off. Even journal-ling felt like a chore. I turned my focus on other things, other things that were also going on in my life and taking up all of my time. But because I stepped out of the habit of writing for so long, when I sat in front of the computer, I was stumped. How was I able to come up with words? You know, those letters that are grouped together and with some effort, turned into an entire sentence and then a paragraph that then becomes an entire article? Even the very first word seemed difficult. Hello. Hi. Uh….. This time, more determined than ever and knowing that the writer in me still lives, I decided to return to some of my old habits, otherwise that very first article would never appear. I did in fact post an article but a friend of mine let me know that it sounded like I just wanted to hear myself think…. It was the equivalent of ordering 2buck chuck for guests that are expecting fine wine. In the right circumstance this is great, but as my first post, it needed to sound like me, not a watered down, just going to write a bunch of mucky junk and call it a post. No, that wasn’t going to get swallowed easily. It needed to sound like me, the old me, the me that had an opinion and was fallible and was always searching for something more. Just an fyi, if you do like wine, I’m all about the organic red Green Fin from Trader Joe’s. Incredibly affordable! Oops, that’s a secret because they’re always running out. Leave me some! My point is, my voice was still being suppressed because I had buried it so very deep. I am proud to say I think I’m finding my voice all over again. I think my writing is certainly rusty and grammatical errors are bound to appear, but I want to say thank you all for your support and thank you dear friend for giving me that critique. It was the permission I needed to bear my soul. Ahh, I like the sound of that!
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